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That feeling has returned. The urge to do something worthwhile. The need to help in a cause larger than life. The yearn to make a difference.
There's nothing really for me here anymore, nothing keeping me here. Work-wise... well, this is a good company to work for and I'm truly grateful to the people who have believed in me. At the same time, I don't feel like I'm serving a purpose. And that's a necessity for me, to feel that what I do makes sense and helps achieve something. And I want to do something good. God knows, I could do with a karmic cleansing.
Here's the rub: I don't know where to start. I'm smart, creative, resourceful, excellent at information sourcing, highly proficient in managing projects, and I've definitely proven an unnervingly high tolerance for stress. But that's sort of it. I mean, I'm really good in business, but what use is that to anyone? It's not like being a doctor or a nurse. I can create very efficient business processes, but that's hardly going to make anyone's life better. I'd love to work for the UN or the World Wildlife Fund, but I think I should have maybe made different decisions in my life to pursue a career in that direction.
I feel lost and I want to get away. I'm not the type of person to ponder the meaning of life or search for a purpose. But a lot has happened the past year and a half, and I find myself itching for a purpose. Something that will make it all worth it. Something to fill that desolate void. Something to look back on and feel that, regardless of all else, at least I achieved that. The good that everyone seems so keen on claiming comes after all the bad.
So, anyone out there maybe need help saving gorillas in Congo or cloud-forests in Costa Rica? Teach computer skills to kids in Burma or fight deforestation just about anywhere in the world? I work hard and my heart is in the right place. And I take pretty good photos if that helps.
Ah, the choices we make in life... how they do tend to return to bite us in the ass.
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